I lay in bed, knowing any minute my mother would open my door and tell me to get up for school. My eyes felt blurry, and my blankets were wadded up around my ankles. I was too tired to grab them, too cold to fall asleep. Usually, I'm the first one up, but not today. Last night was horrible...
When I turned my lights out, everything got so dark, so cold. I felt terribly alone and I was scared, everyshadow seemed to be moving. Every dark corner seemed to be hiding the unknown. I'm never scared of my room after dark, usually, I'm relieved when I turn out the lights at night and dream. Last night, I was scared to fall asleep. I felt cold, lonely, and confused. I asked myself over and over, "why?" Why am I so scared? Of what? I still cannot answer that. After seeing the light of dawn, which dawned too early, a part of me still felt the same. I'm still scared. I'm still confused. I can't answer the question why? But maybe time will answer it for me.
I have track practice after school, I wonder what it will be like? I've never participated in Track. I think I will enjoy it more than basketball, because nothing...er... nobody can hold me back. I don't have to deal with the team, the other girls who are so negative and depresing. I can see myself excelling over everyone in Discus, Shotput, Long Jump and High Jump. My goal is to be the best of the best, I won't stop until I am. I want greatness in everything I do, and that is exactly what I will get.
I will probably have more to say after practice...
Until then,
Kaylee
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